Things lately have been feeling so hectic. I feel like I'm in a spaceship trying to navigate through a meteor shower. There's something everywhere, and I can't seem to avoid it. What's worse is that this is all happening right as I'm about to move! It's insane and I want to get a grip on it.
It's mainly a lot of other people's traits I feel like I'm handling. Fake, stubborn, angry, irritated, all very negative and very unwelcome. It's all really starting to weigh down on me and sometimes I feel lost in it all. Although after reading a few chapters from a self-help book, (it helps to hear it from someone else once in a while) I feel a tiny bit more rational. I am the only person who has control over my life, no one else, plain and simple. Not everyone is going to like me, so be it. I have to learn to be the bigger person and ignore anyone trying to bring me down. If there's one thing I took away from that self-help book it was ditch negative people in your life. If you give love and respect and don't receive love and respect in return, that person is not worth your time. Life really is to short to be hated, so I vow to enjoy and appreciate those who love and respect me. For some reason they have chosen to look past my mood swings and appreciate me for who I am. A special thanks to them.
As I sit here typing, I look around my room and I see boxes. The boxes are filled with what I will take with me. Everything else will be sold or trashed. In a way it's almost as if I'm taking only the good with me and leaving the bad behind. I no longer need it and I don't have room to store it. If I can ditch furniture without feeling any emotional attachment to it, I can ditch negative people who bring negative energy into my life.
I'm starting to believe that maybe there is some hope. Somewhere past all of these meteors there is an empty space that leaves room for improvement. I intend to get to that empty space no matter what and start improving myself and my life.
To all my readers out there, take care. Whatever meteor showers you may be trying to get through, just remember that there's that little bit of empty space waiting for you on the other side. You can reach it.
- Mags
